God has been doing something new in me.
For the past few weeks, I’ve been reading Scripture as I listen and then, I listen again. Really listen. I wait for the Holy Spirit to lead me in writing and then it comes in waves, flooding and saturating me.
Some mornings are amazing.
Other mornings have been painful as I write from a place of pain. Let me explain.
I’ve been struggling physically with jaw pain. It seems when I fell in the shower years ago that I did a real number on my face. Anyway, it hurts to chew and…it hurts to talk.
This is no easy task for me, not talking, since I talk all the time. All. The. Time.
I realized at church on Sunday that I also can’t lift my voice to the Lord like I want. Singing was excruciating. I did it anyway (the best I could) and cried when I couldn’t.
Fast forward into Monday, and I found myself in the middle of a spiritual battle. I mean from every angle. It was one of the darkest days of my life. Pain and discouragement felt like a dark dungeon to me.
That morning I didn’t know how I could possibly write anything. I needed help. I NEEDED prayer.
I was bawling on the floor in our living room, the pain in my jaw excruciating and matching the pain in my lower back – I’d hurt myself the week before while lifting our mattress.
So, I wrote a post for others about needing others. But I knew God was using it to speak to me too. I quickly sent a few texts and made a call and asked others to pray for me.
And I felt every prayer lighten the load, the physical pain, and the darkness of discouragement. Every single prayer helped.
And later that night when I got in the shower, I knew I couldn’t sing because of the pain in my jaw, but I realized I could still hum.
I hummed “Great Is Thy Faithfulness” while I was in the shower. The warm water soothed my back and jaw, but it was that song coming from within me that soothed my aching spirit.
And today I’m moving forward with that song tucked in my heart. Yes, I have to be quiet today. But I can hear that song – I can listen to it. All. Day. Long.
If you’re struggling, my friend, cry out to God while you’re lying there on the floor. Don’t hesitate for a minute to ask others to pray for you. The enemy may be ruthless, but because of the blood of Jesus Christ…
You are victorious!
Let God fill your heart with a new song as you sing from a place of victory.
“Sing to the Lord, for he has done glorious things; let this be known to all the world.”Isaiah 12:5 NIV.
“But I will trust in your unfailing love; my heart rejoices in your salvation. I will sing to the Lord, for he has been good to me.”Psalm 13:5-6 NIV.
“He put a new song in my mouth, a hymn of praise to our God. Many will see and fear and put their trust in the Lord.”Psalm 40:3 NIV.