God first gave me this article to write for The Outreacher, but now He’s wanting me share it here. Someone must be hurting… I’m praying for you, my friend.
Do you feel broken? Do you sense that things are not okay in your spirit and you don’t know how to fix them? You’re not alone. I’m with you in the brokenness, and I know God is with both of us. That’s just the kind of awesome and faithful God we have. He told me to “be real” when I started to write this because we need to peel away all the layers, the defenses, and even the phony masks to get to the truth. Spiritual brokenness is painful. But God wants you to know He is with you right now.
Being broken is like being in a very dark cave. David hid in a cave while on the run from Saul. Are you running or hiding? I’m not either. I think sometimes God allows us to have time in the cave to revamp our focus. When we’re out in the bright light of our lives, there are so many distractions, so many things for our eyes to see, so many of our own senses to rely on that we sort of forget to lean on God.
But not here in the cave. In the cave you can’t rely on yourself. You can’t trust your own judgment and your own senses are even distorted. You learn here that it is God who is truly trustworthy.
Protection. God just whispered that to me. Time spent in the cave can also mean God is protecting us from something, an individual, or a situation. I have to wonder sometimes if He’s protecting me from myself. Maybe He’s protecting you from you. Do you drive yourself crazy trying to figure everything out and fix it? Do you let go of God’s hand and run ahead of Him because you just can’t wait any longer to see where He’s leading? I do all of those things. And the waiting, I’m learning, can be nothing short of excruciating. Maybe being in the cave is teaching us to be still and remember Who it is that’s in charge.
God does a lot of teaching in the cave. Remember, all the distractions and busyness are hushed as they’re left outside. He wants more for you. He wants more of you. He wants you to hear His voice; what loving father wouldn’t? So He teaches you to reach out to Him, to listen deeply in your spirit for the Holy Spirit’s leading. He’s training you to have eyes that see and ears that hear in a place where your physical eyes and ears are practically useless. And He’s nurturing your heart to be so tender you not only dream of Jesus while you’re asleep but while you’re wide awake too.
Yes, life will move quickly outside the cave and you’ll feel like you’re missing out. But you’re not missing out on what God has for you. Again, He has so much more for you.
Some may call to you, try to shine a light, throw you a rope, but not many will understand why you choose to stay here. This cave is the place where you and God are meeting for a season, a time for you to learn total surrender, humility, and complete obedience. Maybe you don’t feel like much is happening right now. That’s okay. Much is happening in your spirit as He transforms all of your brokenness into the complete vessel He created you to be.
And when the time has come, when God knows you are ready, He will gently take you by the hand and walk you right out of this cave and into the glorious light of a new dawn; a wonderfully new and powerful dawn. God is going to use you. Just be still and wait. And know this, I’m waiting with you and praying for you too.
“Be still, and know that I am God.” (Psalm 46:10 NIV.)